Space of Freedom

 I am only 26 years old but if I gained any wisdom from the past couple of years it is much better to wish less because you will miss out on today's blessings!  There is nothing wrong remembering but we are also called to live present! This has been on my brain a lot because I know I will miss going on a trip this summer; however I have actually received a sweeter blessing of  being home! This summer is the first summer in a while that I have stayed home!

I am actually ok with that! Don't get me wrong if someone offered me a ticket today to go to NYC or maybe another state I would be on it but home is just as good! Though the past few months of adjustment have been hard there have been countless blessings! I am very excited for the things happening in my home church this summer such as VBS, teaching sweet kindergartners on Wed,summer nights with friends  and the new door God opened up for me at 17th Christian Street! I know that being present has really seem to be the focus of my blog in a lot of ways but its very true that when we wish we miss out on today's gifts!

For the first time being home I am at more peace then what I was when I wrestled why I was home. I am at more peace in taking one step at a time even though there are many things I anticipate or  hope to accomplish. I am in a space of freedom!

This space of freedom is lovely because when I stop I see how good God has really been to me!  Also for the first time time something my Pastor told me while I was in New York is starting to make perfect sense.

" One day at a time  obedience is how to arrive at your God ordained destination"

I can see how that one really plays out because  just walking through the door of the Dixie waiting for Him to lead me on has been so evident! This statement really does set your heart free when you think about it because if your any thing like me you become the planner. You start mapping out how you will get from point A to B but really  it's nothing like you planned!  Trust me I still have to pause my heart and note to myself just let God lead and if it is meant to be it will.

With all this in mind it even puts me at peace about my application online for Southern Seminary where I would love take online classes studying children's ministry. Normally I would be frantic about getting  papers in or how will I afford but I am ok with whatever happens because I know God knows what He is doing.

The same with my car situation! I know I anticipate a car but you know  its going to be ok because God is in charge. These things don't  erase my emotions; yet knowing all this allows me to walk with the Prince of Peace being able to breath! I am constantly learning to loosen the grip of my pencil and let God  write my story instead of trying to be the narrator. It's still a work but He is patient! For that I am glad and I challenge you the be walk in this space of freedom!

Beginning To See Answers

 To wait upon the Lord  can be one of the sweetest gifts!   For about five months or less I had been working at the Dixie Café which ended up being a blessing. My idea of course was not to be a waitress but the Lord knew what He was doing. Over the last couple of months I began praying God what is your vision for me and where do you desire to take me. Little did I know He would be preparing me for the preschool at 17th Christian Street!

There is no doubt God's finger prints have been on it all the way because I remember picking up one of their brochures at the Dixie thinking about calling to see if they had any openings because I knew I loved to work with children. Latter down the road which was only last week  I was let go from my job but my boss the Garr's mentioned this place to me. They also encouraged me telling me how good I was with children.

So, I began to pray and I decided to pick up the phone after my walk I had took that week where I saw their sign as well. Before I knew it that very week I was let go I had an interview and now I am in training as a teachers aid. Who would of thought that?

Only the Lord! I am actually very excited because to me this is a reminder God is watching me because I could remember some of the frustrations when I came home beginning to look for a job. So,  for me it's also a reminder that being faithful to the small things is worth it!  Being home has ended up being a blessing!

I couldn't understand why my time was up in New York but there have been things along the way that have affirmed me why I am home. Things like like teaching Kindergarten on Wednesdays,preparing for VBS,my job and many other things I could list! You know I look around and I realized I  am very blessed! I may not be going on another mission trip outside my home this summer but I am on mission in my hometown Corbin, Kentucky.

I see God also confirming what was on my heart my freshmen year at UC which I pushed away thinking I wouldn't go into education but now I'm in training and I will soon get to be in the classroom with sweet young faces!

I really could go on! But it really is true when God tells us in Psalm 37:4 to " Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you His desires" This doesn't mean I will get my way but when I am in Him my heart will be delighted! There are still other things I am praying over like a car along with children's ministry which is another part of my heart I haven't shared much.

I am also learning to just dive deep with my church family who have surrounded me with great support! I don't share this to boast! I share because we all  need reminders of who God says He is!